Peace in the Process

Donna Wynott
Remember our first meeting when we went around and said what made us sign up for this trip. I didn't have a clue all I felt was God's nudge at that moment. Anyone of you ever look back at what was going on in your life prior to signing up. I think God was preparing me well over a year to go to this trip unknown to me. I think the reason I am so at peace about going is that God has help me make the necessary changes in my life and has put just the right people in my path. The whole year he has given me opportunity to speak to people in need about god. I use to worry too much and my thoughts distracted my mind often. Anyways, One Sunday Pastor Bernie invited anyone to come down front if they have a need for prayer. Next thing I knew it felt like I was yanked out of my seat tossed on god's shoulders and dumped right in front of Pastor Bernie. I don't know what it is about Pastor Bernie but whenever I know he is near it brings me back to school days and the principle is walking the halls so I better be good or hide. Anyways I hear me tell him I need to learn to give my troubles and worries over to god. As someone who had learned to control her surrounding and not trust people completely because of her childhood, giving up control was like breaking down my walls and exposing myself. Fast forward to today,
My 10 yr casa child is in a whole lot of trouble, stole a car and last week he got kicked out of another detention facility, my coworker/friend's son passed away Tuesday night, my job is a around about way hinting that it would be in my best interest to not go to Haiti and last night after our get together my sister-in -law called, her cancer has once again taking a turn fast. I raised my hands to god and said here you go, I trust you. I am at peace that those I love are being cuddled by God's love and that his message to me is to still go to Haiti.